Its 3:09 am
I’m up watching YouTube videos,my thoughts are scrambled,not like a omelette but like when one drops a flat of eggs on the floor.
I find myself confused at times,wanting to reach out in the style of the Pink Hat but also find myself withdrawing from those who simply want to float away in self-destruction. I know I could help with a gesture or a word but I have already tried once,doing it again a second time leaves me tired,spent and staying up at 3:12 am watching YouTube.
I only want to expend my energy toward those who truly need it,I don’t have it in me to help everyone anymore. Now I only want happy endings,is this a reasonable request or I just being selfish at 3:16 am?